Letting go

As a person who thrives on action and planning, I’ve recently felt a compelling need to learn the art of letting go. Familiar scenarios are comfortable to navigate, but when faced with the unfamiliar, I find myself deeply entrenched in the minutiae of planning.

To illustrate, imagine working towards a specific outcome. Ordinarily, I would have every detail meticulously planned out, with ideas residing in my head, scribbled on paper, and also stored in my notes. However, I’ve noticed that such overplanning can ironically complicate the process.

In response, I’ve been trying a different tactic: holding the desired outcome in my mind, scheduling a single activity related to that outcome, and then simply letting things unravel organically. In other words, I prepare the groundwork, set things in motion, and then allow events to unfold naturally.

This approach was particularly successful when I decided to exercise regularly. I prepared my workout clothes, set a time, and then let the habit form naturally. There was no need for weekly or monthly planning; it became as automatic as brushing my teeth.

My goal is to extrapolate lessons learned from such experiences and apply them to other areas of my life. However, the path to embracing this mindset isn’t without resistance; even as I write this, I feel a certain pushback.

What insight do I need to fully embrace the practice of letting go? As I am asking this question, I close my eyes, and cradle my head in my hands, seeking inspiration. What then came to my mind is profound: I am not the sole orchestrator of events in my life. While I make the decisions, there is a higher power attending to the details.

While this should give me peace of mind, I don’t think I fully trust this. Interesting discovery… So then my next action is simple, I must devote time to fully foster trust in my heart and soul that when I make a bold decision, I can rest secure in the knowledge that everything is being taken care of. I think I have found my Lenten plan.

The essence of today’s reflections seems a bit elusive. However, I share them as a reminder that you that you are not alone on this journey. Until then, Love, Katursia.